Wow. I did it this time. I have to remind myself that I can not fix things. I can NOT fix things. As I get older I have found that family is more important than we all realize at 20. And with that I tried to contact my cousins and at least have an acquaintance relationship with an ulterior motive. I haven't seen this particular cousin in thirty years. I heard she had cut off the family. And it was breaking my aunts heart. So I was hoping that maybe some contact would mend a fence. Ha. Not so. I sent an email telling her what a great kid she has (and she does) as I had had a bit of contact with him. And I said I wasn't sure if she had cut off the whole complete family (of which that answer must be yes). Testing the waters so to speak. I didn't think that through. I thought if she wanted to be left alone, she would ignore me and I would go away. Instead she must have contacted my aunt and was pissed at her.
So to Nathan....I think you are a great fabulous young man and I wish you well in all your adventures. If you want a relationship someday I am here.
To Cris....I am so sorry. Words cannot convey what I feel. I should not have harvested your daughter's email and tried to have peace. And I sincerely hope that it did not break the thin line of connection you have.
To Virginia....I'm sorry that my email caused you distress. It was not my intent. And since you ignore me I will go away.
But I will blog.
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