Amazing

Two weekends in a row that there has been no drama. I don't know if I can handle that. :P Mostly we have just been hanging out at home. Doing our side jobs and Papa has been to meetings. Enjoying the peace and quiet of home.

Last Weekend

So this is the last weekend of our house being a household of three. Myk comes home on Monday. So we are enjoying our time with Miss Audrie. I'm not sure how all the dynamics are going to change next week, but change they will. I'm also expecting a Cassie visit since she hasn't seen Audrie in almost seven weeks. I'm sure Audrie won't be the draw...it will be Myk.
We have already told Myk there will be no more people living in our house who are not one of us. And if he feels the need to rekindle anything with Cassie he will have to do it somewhere else. I don't care what anyone tells me, I know in my heart that she is still using and dealing, and I don't want Audrie around that. The lies are too annoying as well as all the other crap that surrounds Cassie. I hope that someday she gets her act together, but right now she is where she wants to be. All of that said...she is welcome to come visit Audrie here, by herself. Just no moving back in or couch surfing or anything.

Work

Work is so busy right now. We got a bunch of pallets last week. We managed to get those all gone by Friday. Came in to work on Tuesday and was getting caught up on the rest when 8 more pallets came. Two more on Wed. and then two more today. Yikes. Bossman had me do the pallet of hoodies today. Only 29 boxes of sweatshirts. We would have been caught up today, but everyone else seemed to be sick all week. Oh well keeps us on our toes and working hard. And they still have tomorrow to finish the three and a half pallets still sitting on the floor.

RIP Alanna O'Connell

That was shocking news that we received a week ago. Alanna O'Connell had died. That was all we heard at first. Scott then sent us a message about her having cancer and it had moved pretty quickly. Reminiscent of my dad's quick death from cancer.
Fred and Alanna were our neighbors for years. Scott was Doug's best friend, and probably still is. When their children grew up they moved to Australia. We kept in contact anyway as they are such great people and their son feels like a part of our family.
Alanna was a wonderfully warm person. She was a great Mom and an inspiration in that department. It is a great loss to her family.
We will miss you Alanna.

Happiness

Happiness is a fully stocked pantry. Went grocery shopping this morning by myself. Miss Audrie stayed home with Papa. Came home and put stuff away. Chopped up the celery and carrots. Let's see if that helps them become something...like stir fry that I can just put together quickly now. Trying to be mindful of using the food we buy. I have chicken thawing to become stock for either soup or dumplings. Got to get back into cooking good healthy food for us, especially now that Audrie is eating big people food. I don't want her thinking that junk food is the way to go. It is a very hard habit to break if it gets started.

Treva Asked

Treva asked me how my week was going. I realized that it is better and very quiet. My life is never dull and very very rarely quiet. This weekend is quiet. Wow. I won't have any tales to tell this week at work. I can breathe. Next weekend may be something else altogether, but I am enjoying this weekend.

Chatting

Well I feel a little better. Dave and I had our own chat about where our life goes from here. We are still in limbo a bit, but have plans.

Still Annoyed

So I was chatting and said I was annoyed and realized it is a pretty innocuous word for what I am feeling. And yet I can't think of any other word to describe it. Soon after I realized I don't have a word because I have no feeling. I know how I should feel and sometimes it creeps in a bit. But then it all goes away into nothingness. Oh I remember this feeling. I'm depressed again. Great. So I am spending my days sitting on the floor playing with Audrie and watching TV. Audrie likes it.

PIC

So I saw my new eye specialist. He seems fine. Knows his stuff. He explained what happened to my eye. I had some kind of inflammation that caused scarring. That allowed the abnormal blood vessels to grow and leak. Okay so there is a technical name for it and all I could remember was PIC. Tried to look it up but haven't had much luck yet. He said PIC seems to mostly happen to women in their 40's. Yeehaw for me. And they have no idea why or what causes it. And to top it off he said the inflammation could return at any time. More yeehaws for me. His goal is to wean me off the Avastin. He said I have done remarkably well. So we are stretching out my next appt. to 13 weeks. Guess that will be telling. I recurred at 13 weeks the last time we tried no medication. He seems hopeful though since that was at the beginning of treatment and I have two years of it now. We shall see and only time will tell. Oh and he also told me that Dr. Lemley was also working towards this same goal, so I felt better.

Freefalling

Still. No net, no parachute. Just falling. Waiting and waiting to see how the landing is going to be.

Technology Challenged

So I had my eye dr. appt. last Friday, and that is a whole different post. Anyway while sitting in the waiting room I was watching a man read a kindle. I, being technology challenged, don't have a cell phone, a lap top or a kindle. Mostly I am always the youngest person in the waiting room. So I'm looking around and there are three oldsters with kindles. They are so far beyond me in technology. I still like books, but those kindles are growing on me when I realized they are book size. But for now I'll stay in my safe little world and read books, talk on land lines and give up my dream of an ipad.

The Play

Elizabeth and I had tickets to go see a play last Saturday. Audrie got dropped off at her Grandma Nita's house and we were off. We parked in the parking lot and then walked down to the Pearl District to find some lunch. We ate at the Deschutes BrewPub. Yuppie food, but we managed to find something to eat there. Then we hiked back up to the Northwest Cultural Building. We saw "Robin Hood" in a new adaptation. It was very good and pretty funny. Elizabeth liked it also. It was her first real play.

And That Shoe Keeps Dropping

Life gets very quiet once in awhile. And when it does that I am always looking for that other shoe to drop. But Myk is incarcerated so it stays quiet. Didn't expect the calm to vanish because of Dave. But it did. Dave has decided that he no longer wanted to travel. He no longer wanted to "put up with the bullshit at ADS" and so he made it so he is unemployed. He went to Quebec on Tuesday and was home on Thursday. No income, no health insurance. But hey it is no big deal. Basically that is the attitude that was shown here. Okay so now we put it back together after that shoe stomped on it as it fell. Life. And we'll add Myk back into the mix in 18 days.
Ashlie moved on. We knew that was coming. Took everyday that it didn't as a gratitude day. Loved having a babysitter on the premises. Life is going to get interesting.