Destroying Books

I spent almost an hour this morning destroying books.  When books come in damaged, sometimes the vendor does not want the book back and we are to destroy them.  The first time is very very hard.  Destroy books. It is so wrong.  After that it is a piece of cake.  So today that was part of my job.  Bossman wanted the box cleared last week, but no one seemed to have time.  I made a dent.  It is usually one of those fill in jobs and I needed one of those this morning.
I like the lull times.

Being Mom

We have not heard from Mike in almost two weeks.  It is the absolute longest we have ever went without hearing from him.  Makes me kind of nervous.  I am not sure if it means he is out there doing his thing and has finally figured out we aren't helping him to that.  Or if he is in a ditch somewhere.  Or is he is cleaning up somewhere.  Guess time will tell, but it is hard on a mom not knowing.
I did see that Cassie is still alive.  That was good because she also hadn't been in any kind of contact since she got out of jail.  I will take my clues where I can find them.  I'm really not looking forward to someday having to explain things to the little kids.

Again

It seems like every weekend I have this great to do list.  And every weekend most of it doesn't get done.  Figures.  Anyway it was a nice quiet weekend.  The little man took three steps today.  He has taken some single steps, but not for a few days.  Then today he did three.  I see fun in the future.
I noticed today that Cassie is still in the world.  I like it when I can say that.  I watch for clues and am happy when I find them.

Zoo Again

First notice the shirt in the first picture.  It was meant to be one of her birthday presents at the end of the month when she turns 3 years-old.  She found it and is now wearing it.
The little kids and I ventured over to the zoo today.  It was just such a great day to go.  Papa stayed home and did some yard work that he has been wanting to do.  Going to the zoo with just Nana is quite a different experience.  We were there for three hours and Audrie got to play all she wanted to on all the statues.  She loved it.  The little man actually saw animals this time.  He saw the bats, the cheetahs, the penguins and the goats.  Audrie especially liked the hippos, giraffes and lions.
After we were done looking at the animals we had an elephant ear and sat on the grass.  Then Audrie ran in one direction and the little man pushed his stroller over to other people.  I was like really?  Another child of ours who just makes himself home with other folk.  Wow.  Guess so.
It was a great outing.  I love the zoo and I hope the little kids love it also.

Just Happy

I did it the old fashioned way.  It's not technical and it's not legal, but it gives me peace of mind.  I already knew.  My daddy told me and I'm pretty sure he can't lie to me.  My heart tells me.  The little man is ours.  And looking at the old fashioned way it looks like that is true.  Now we wait for the legal technical results which should say the same thing.  Mike and Cassie sure made some beautiful children.

And the curvy board is on its way.  What a great day.

Today

I am enjoying the lull at work and only have three day work weeks.
I am basking in the lovely fall days.  Sunny during the day and chilly at night.
I am amazed at the change in Audrie when we go places.  She is behaving better and more grown up.  Maybe she is ready to turn 3.
I am patiently waiting on the test results.
I am looking forward to seeing my friends up north.
I am feeling blessed that the pantry is full and the woodshed is full.
I am feeling blessed in the love of the little kids and Dave.
I am breathing and practicing ahimsa.
I am thankful every day that I get to practice patience.
I am moving back to frugal living.
I am laughing at Kristie's little jokes.  I get her sense of humor.
I am looking forward to the next kid outing.  Sometime this weekend I think.
I am blessed.

Wayward

So the wayward parents are alive.  Mike called one day last week to see if he could get a ride from the hospital. We had heard that he was in again for an overdose.  Then Cassie changed her relationship status on facebook so we know she too is at least still alive.  It is funny how we take our little clues from where we can find them to see if they are still with us.
We still sit and wait for the call that says things have changed.  One way or the other.  Unfortunately I am beginning to think we are expecting the call that says they overdosed and died or were shot and died.  Sad really.