Future

Thinking about the future and how it may look.  I go back and forth on ever being in a house again.  There are nice things about it, but there are nice things about apartments.  Anything breaks and I'm not responsible for it.  I don't have a yard I have to maintain.  That means I don't have a garden either though.  Back and forth I go.  Either way eventually I will need a three bedroom place or a two bedroom place with a loft.  

And then I think about relationships.  I don't ever see myself opening up myself to anyone again the way I did in my marriage.  Probably why I don't ever plan on another one of those.  It's not that my marriage was all bad.  It is just the past ten years really overshadow the good things.  And that is sad.  And makes me want to keep myself to myself.  Safer that way.