Feeling

I absolutely do not like feeling. I like being an emotion stuffer. It is so much easier, and yet things are changing. I've been having this semi conversation with George and with that comes these memories.
I do not regret the decisions I made back in the day. But I fit with George, or at least I did. And I can feel that and it makes me sad. I told him that the piece of my heart that I knew he would break aches. And it does.  When I remember George, when I dream about George, when I think about George I feel comfort and safe. And he so obviously doesn't feel that. I don't think I could ever not feel that with him.
I've got to let that go. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.