Mixed Emotions

I don't know how to start new relationships. I just maintain the relationships I have. So I have this thing with George. And about every time I give up he comes back and gives me glimmers of something.  I go back and forth. Is he good for me? Am I good for him? Can we be friends? I don't know. What I do know is I smile when I think of him even when I'm frustrated. I glow when I talk about him. So I'm trying to let it flow and see where it goes. Taking glimmers where I get them.  Definitely gives me a variety of emotions and I'm trying to feel some of them. And that in itself is confusing.