Limbo

It has felt like living in limbo the entire time we have lived in the apartment.  We did manage to make it a home, but it has always been with the knowledge that we were not here permanently.  So it is always limbo.
Mom is deteriorating and really needs more care.  So we have decided that at the end of my lease, if not before, we will be moving in with her.  And in the mean time  my brother is going to be spending some nights there each week.
It's a little bit daunting.  I know she has no patience and the littles take a lot of energy and patience.  I know they push her buttons and she pushes theirs.  It is like having three pre-schoolers.  The upside is they will all adjust and I'm still going to work which means the littles are still in day care.  Audrie will be in school.  It's not like it is going to be 24/7 noise.
Mom and I talked about it.  I pointed out that she had choices last year and decided to stay in her house.  This year she still has a choice, but it is more limited.  Live with us or move to an assisted living.  Staying in her own house is easier for her.  And she gets to stay with her dog.
It is a relief to finally have a decision made.  It is a relief to know that limbo is ending.  And we need to get out of the apartments.  My neighbor upstairs is becoming much more brazen in his drug dealing.  And more people are talking about it now because he is so brazen.  Also I won't have to deal with that $100 jump in rent that is coming at the end of this lease.  Ouch.