Overwhelmed

So Mike checked himself back into detox.  No idea what his future plans are.  He spent four days there and got over the worst of the withdrawals.  He is back at Dave's through Christmas and then plans on moving on.  Time will tell.
I have just been overwhelmed with it all emotionally which means I just function.  So the money guy from allstate has just been annoying the hell out of me along with Sam.  I was about ready to do something about it when it just got to be too much.  So I shut it down.  I figured for now the money was safe.  It's mine and in an IRA.  If it wasn't for Sam being my friend I probably would have shut it all down.
So I finally responded to Judd and have a meeting today to look at some more options and do something that gives me more time to decide what I want to do long term. Because I am not deciding right now.

Sowing Wild Oats

My little man is sure sowing his oats.  Seems like every chance he gets he is into something.  His newest fascination seems to be eggs.  He fingerpainted the kitchen floor with one early in the week.  Then yesterday he tried to do the same on the carpet of the dining room.  Oy.
His other trick this week is unrolling toilet paper off the roller.  Boy there is a lot of paper on one of those rollers.  At least he didn't try to flush it....just left it on the floor.  I saved it and then have to remember to grab some out of the linen closet when needed.  What a man.

Kicking and Screaming

It is funny and it is not, how easy it is to be dragged back into co-dependence. Mike was arrested on his warrants and then released the next day for 30 days house arrest.....at my house. And naturally he didn't follow through with his requirements. I'm watching all the crap and holding strong on no rides or money, but I can't stop the crap.  It all came to a head last night and he has left. High, high, high. There is no talking to him like that.
We had a conversation a week ago where he told me he just did not care about anyone or anything other than himself. I said I thought he didn't even care about himself...only his drugs. He agreed. It was the most honest thing he has said in years.
Now I have to resolve myself that he can't be here. I can't have the crap around the little kids. I'm just so glad that Audrie was at Papa's last night and didn't witness her daddy in that condition.

And Again

This week just got away from me. I worked four days. My car returned to the shop for the third time. The valve cover gasket that got replaced a few weeks ago had a kink in it. All fixed for free. I sure like those loaner cars they give me. I took Mom shopping and she is almost done. Wish I was. Mike had me on edge all week. The littles were great. I think it is time to step back and take a deep breath.

Baby It's Cold Outside

Audrie had a tumbling class today.  So Connor and I bundled up and went for a walk around the school while she did that.  He spotted two birds in the soccer field and away he went. He never believes me when I tell him he can't catch them.  He gave it a good try though. I just stood on the sideline and watched him.  After that we practiced our jumping off curb skill and he tried walking the curb.  That one is a little beyond him yet, but not for long.  Then we hurried back to the car to warm up.  Love the cold when it is sunny.

Whirlwind Week

I worked four days this week. Then we added a Dr visit, a potluck party, pictures for Connor and coffee with Katie and Sandy.  Felt like I was going non-stop all week.  Connor is healthy and took really nice pictures even if he wouldn't really smile.  Katie and Sandy are good and busy.  Katie gave us an invite to come up any Tuesday or Wednesday.  Those days she has her grandkids.  The potluck went great even if I was a little stressed beforehand.  I intended to make lasagna but it turned into a cheese plate.  I love finding out I'm out of things I know I have.  So I ran out of time to get it done.  Will make a nice dinner tomorrow night.
It was kind of nice having a "snow day " morning.  Slowed us down.  Lunch got cancelled.  We just took our time motivating for the day.

Creepy Feeling

So I ran into Jim, one of Dave's neighbors.  We talked for a minute and he said oh you live in the Clark apartments.......I have never shared that with him.  Well turned out his daughter has a friend across the parking lot and she told him.  I haven't seen her since she was eight, so it surprised me that she knew who I was.  Anyway he then proceeded to ask about Dave and I.  Told him the divorce was final last week.  He went 'Oh so you're free' with that sound of interest.  I started chanting in my head...please don't ask me out, please don't ask me out.  Must have worked, that and telling him that Dave quit drinking after I left.  Jim was standing there with a six pack of beer in his hand.  Yeah not interested in that.  I'm pretty sure that was why his wife moved to town also.