No I Refuse to Believe It

This morning I looked in the mirror and I guess I saw what he sees. No. I refuse to see that I am not beautiful just because I am overweight. I do not see myself that way. I am like the anorexic woman who sees herself as fat. I see myself as thinner...not someone not lovable, unattractive or undesirable. I'm just sorry that he can't see me like I see me. And again I have no control over what other people think. So I'm going to put those thoughts away about having wasted money on sexy things. I will just feel sexy for me.