I posted a saying on facebook that stated....thanks for those who walked into my life and made it better and thanks to those who walked out and made it amazing. And I realized how true it is. Life has thrown me a lot of curveballs over the years. And right now we are in the midst of hard living.
Mom with her dementia is an emotional rollercoaster. Raising grandchildren with no help is an emotional rollercoaster. All the things that have changed and where we are right now in our lives are hard things. And it's all right. My plate is full, but it is not overflowing. So while I may be sad at all the things the kids miss out on because of others' choices and while I am doing this without Dave and it is hard......I'm all right. My life is better right now today than it has been in a long time.
I am so thankful that I don't have to deal with drama from people who don't like me and want to blame me for their choices. I can't even imagine what life would be like if I had to still tiptoe around so as to not offend people who professed to be my family for a long time and really weren't. So yes, thanks for the amazing new journey.
And that said......I was commenting about a change coming. When there is no longer anything here to hold me....that being Mom, it may be time for a change. Because I can do anything that I want. Just would have to convince my brother and my son that they, too, needed the change. ;p
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