Freedom

It's kind of an odd place to be.  I hadn't really thought about it until Aunt Betty pointed it out.  She told me she wasn't going to really say sorry for the loss as that loss was the last tie in my life.  I am not attached to a spouse.  I am not attached to a significant other.  I am not raising children any longer. I am not attached to a job that I have to be at. I am not attached to a piece of property that I live at and have to maintain.  I don't even have an apartment.  I have a room.  And it holds all my worldly goods.  I have downsized and minimized so much that there just isn't much left.  And everything of value whether real or sentimental have already been taken from me or lost.  What I am left with is a great amount of freedom.  Freedom to do stuff and freedom from taking care of stuff.
I am free to do whatever I want.  Well once society as a whole can do stuff.  I get to choose every single day how I want to spend it.  Right now I am not planning much further than this summer when I make my Midwest trip.  Pat and I are still talking about Mexico for Thanksgiving if allowed.  And then maybe Indiana for Christmas. And when Pat talks about some of the trips he wants to take I can now entertain thoughts of going along.  Or not. 
What I am planning is a trip to Florida and a trip to New Mexico.  I want to see the people who are important to me and who have given me support or looked to me for support.  I can make a whole lot of long weekend trips if I want to and I think I do. Tomorrow is never promised.