He's My Man

I love bath night.  Audrie has taken to going poopy in the potty just before her bath.  Connor went too, but in his diaper.  Had their bath and they played.  Got Connor out of the tub and let him run around naked for a bit. Audrie came out and I got her dried.  We walked back towards the bedrooms and I see this pile of little things.  I say "what is that"?  She pipes up with....."it's poopy."  Joy.  The little man must not have been done before his bath.  Picked it up and threw it away. Put a diaper on him and gave him a hug.  He's my man.

Visit

So Dave sent me texts asking why I am colder and pulling away.  I was in the middle of tryng to get a phone line, so I didn't respond.  One thing at a time.  Then he texted again saying he hasn't done anything lately to warrant it.  Again I did not respond.  Then he asks if he can come see the kids.  So I say sure if you can drive.  Tells me he is completely sober.
When he arrived he actually looked sober, but he sure was happy.  Now maybe he really was happy.  Happy to see the kids.   Happy to have been given the okay to start using his foot.  Just happy.  I don't know. Dave isn't that happy.  Anyway we broached it a bit.  I gave him his key to his toolbox back as I no longer feel the need to look for his bottle.  He again for the umpteenth time tells me there won't be any more bottles.  Says it with a straight face.  Tries to tell me that the whole last year he was just overwhelmed.  And while I agree with him in that assessment....that is just an excuse to make it all right.  It's not all right.
What I heard was a whole lot of talk about the doc giving him more dilaudid and how he is being very careful with it.  And how he hasn't been drinking...he is just tired.  What I heard is the same kind of stuff Mike is telling me when he is trying to convince me of something.  So actions....not words.  Either way I guess Dave hasn't figured it out yet.  I'm not coming back.  I don't ever want to look for the bottle again.
I like my life now.  I really like my life now.

No Phone

Today was the day I was to have a landline.  The little kids and I went and bought a phone and plugged it in. Only to have it do nothing.  Wow.  I get on the chat feature on the internet and they can't find my order.  It got lost. Wow.  Oh it gets better.  So we start over.  All of this has taken almost an hour.  At the hour mark the chatter tells me that their system can't find my town and he can't complete the order.  Say what?? Tells me I have to call the 1-800 number and talk to someone.  I thought I was talking to someone, just via the internet.  Well I called and since it was after 6, I got nowhere.  So I get back on the chat. Yes the original order is gone, lost, kaput.  But imagine this...this guy can find my town and he set me up again.  I already have my confirmation email and so I expect that next week I will have a landline.  I still don't understand why it takes so long when all they have to do is flip a switch or do something on a computer, but I will be patient.

Daycare Man

Connor's CASA worker made a trip out to daycare today to check on him and see the facility.  I asked her what she thought afterwards.  She really liked it.  He is happy and the place is clean, friendly and the staff knowledgeable.  She was pleased with my choice.  I know I am, but it is nice to get feedback from someone with a little more experience than me.
Connor is getting a little bit frustrated with his Nana.  I tend not to let him feed himself messy food.  Well he really really wanted to feed himself yogurt.  After a moment of struggle Nana gave in.  It was bath night so why not.  Well he did pretty good actually.  There was only one dollop in his hair.  His hands seemed the messiest and he got quite a bit in his mouth using the spoon.
I can see how much the kids are growing from their experience in day care.  Audrie puts on her own coat and seat belt now.  She is also going potty much more often without prompting.  I prompt and she turns me down flat.  Her idea and she uses it.  She even goes poopy sometimes.  She is helpful and carries her lunch or bags in the house.  Wow.  Should have done this awhile ago.  ;p

How It Goes

We have been in the apartment for just over a month now.  We keep getting more and more settled.  I have been slowly working on the boxes that have stuff obviously not needed.  We are keeping mostly picked up and vacuuming about five nights a week.  We get a little slack on the kitchen, but it is clean right now.  I find I don't "COOK" as much here.  We had chicken on Saturday and then ate leftovers for the next two days.  Doing that a lot right now especially with the extra hours I am working.  Must be why I dropped a couple more pounds.
The kids are about all over their pneumonia.  They have a doc appointment tomorrow for a check on that.  I got Audrie's address and phone number changed, but didn't get Connor's.  They called Dave for the reminder call. Funny how he told me about that.  Unlike the changed WIC appointment that he changed.  He is no longer on WIC as my back up.  They will only deal with me and I won't miss my appointments.
My landline works tomorrow so I won't have to pay overages on my cell phone.  That makes me happy.  Still haven't gotten a water bill, but I did finally get a PUD bill.  Karen says we keep insurance as it is until a divorce is final.  Cheaper that way since there are multiple cars.
It is starting to feel more real and less like playing house.  I really like it here.  I am still breathing and find that we are distancing ourselves from Dave.  All those love songs about forever make me sad.  All those cute sayings on facebook about being married to my best friend make me sad.  But not for long.  I know they aren't realistic in my life.  And that is all I have.

Seriously

Well my month old router died.  Comcast gave me a new one.  After chatting with two different comcast analysts I still don't have working wi-fi.  No idea why but I can't connect to the syslink link to set up the router.  So they gave me a 1-800 number to call.  Here we go again.  I'm not sweating it.  Once I have my landline I will call them and we will get it all working.  And in the meantime Audrie will do without videos. She will just have to have the books read to her.

Quiet Weekend

When there are only two days to the weekend and Nana has worked a lot of  hours we don't get much done on the weekend.  We managed to get to Fred Meyer's so we have some lunch food for the beginning of the week.  We got a walk in and some laundry done. And other than that and the side jobs it seems the whole weekend just slipped away.  I don't see that changing the next couple of weekends.  After that it should lighten up and we will have some fun.  Nana Nita is thinking about coming down and maybe we can talk her into having the little kids overnight.  This Nana is ready for a night out.  :p
Ohhh ohhh ohhh. If I time it right maybe I can go see the hiphoppy belly dancers.