New Day

It is a new day. I am taking a deep breath. And another. One doesn't seem to be enough. I had been working on honoring those who honor me and leaving those who don't to live their lives. I'm not always successful in that endeaver, but definitely working on it. But at some point even that doesn't seem to be enough. I find it amazing that if I am leaving you alone to do what you want, why do you insist upon continuing to disrespect me. I am tired of the lies, the deceit, the hidden agendas, the alcoholic/addict games, and the disrespect. I have simply had enough. My plate is too full of the important things to be burdened down with your need to prove something. You don't need to prove anything to me. I already see you and know you for who you are. I'm pretty sure you don't see me or know who I am. I will not have my grandchildren held over my head as some kind of pawn in a one upmanship game. The only ones who lose there are the grandchildren and someday that will be explained to them.
That said...it is a new day. And today I again get back to what is important. I will feed, diaper, cuddle, and bath the little man. I will feed, diaper, cuddle, read to and bath the best girl. I will continue to support Dave in his recovery. I will see my mother. I will touch base with my siblings. I will send well wishes to the ones not in my life at this time and hope they seek their own road to recovery. I will miss Elizabeth and Adrianna everyday.
Breath. Ahimsa.