Family Recharge #9

Whoa. Wow. Oy. So number nine was 20 questions about reconnecting with your significant other. Some very hard questions. My mind instantly goes blank. I can't answer a single one of them.
This year marks our 28th year of marriage. We are on our third set of children. By that I mean we got custody of his two children before we had been married a year at ages 7 and 10. We then had our own child five years into the marriage which put the older kids at 11 and 14. Now we are raising our child's children. We have not always agreed on parenting, but we did the best job we knew how to do.
I am married to my best friend, although we do not agree on everything. We do not necessarily talk about everything that we disagree on. And there have been times when I wasn't sure he was my best friend. He didn't always have my back so to speak.
I am married to an alcoholic who is now in recovery. He has been working on his recovery for almost three years. Recovery does not make things honkydory fine. Recovery does not mean that we now agree on everything. Recovery does not mean we live in our fairy tale world now.
Recovery means we take it one day at a time. He is learning how to deal with life without the numbing affects of alcohol and I get to learn how to deal with that. A lot of alcoholic tendencies still show themselves as we go through this process of recovery that will never end.
So we are working on connecting of many different levels. I am working on not cocooning myself. It's hard. Every day is up in the air, so I am living for today and trying to be present today. In life, in parenting, in marriage. I have already learned that all my hopes, dreams, aspirations (besides being a wife and mom) went out the door a long time ago. So I live with what is because it is what I have for right now.
I love my husband. I love my child. I love my grandchildren. I love Doug. And for now it is enough.