Going Back

I want to go back to where we were all those years ago. We used to be more affectionate. More than quick kisses and hugs. I'm not knocking kisses and hugs. I was just so inhibited back then. So if Dave would come up behind me in the kitchen I would not like it. I was busy and we had kids. I spent a lot of years worrying about how we would affect the kids with our actions. If I knew then what I know now. I always thought that once we were empty nesters we would act like newlyweds. Ha. We are never going to be empty nesters.
Another hindsight. If I would have realized that I had married an alcoholic who one day would be in recovery, we would have hired babysitters once in awhile and went out. We'd have hit the comedy clubs, Darcelle's, shows, etc. I just never had kids with the intention of going out a lot. Always thought we would do that later. My objective with kids was to be a parent. So we did family things and family vacations and family outings. And I would not change any of that.
Think I am rethinking how we raise our next generation. Maybe we need to integrate a date night once a month or something. We just can't go to bars, clubs, places where alcohol is a big thing. I'm sure we can find some other fun things to do. And I will get over my melancholy for the things that didn't turn out as planned.