2013

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The COURAGE to change the things I CAN,
And the wisdom to know the difference.

 2013 will be a year of change, growth and goals.  I've been thinking about it for awhile.  Thinking, not really knowing what was going to transpire.  I still don't know as I am living life one day at a time.  That said however I am looking at options and making plans. So some of my goals and changes for 2013 are;

I would like to finally lose the weight that I gained when I quit smoking.  And doing it for me because it is healthy....not using it to keep people at bay and away from me.
That means a change in diet.  We have let too much junk in last year and it is time to get back to better eating.  And better eating is good for us.  Need to make this change while it is still easy to do with little kids.
More floor time with the kids.  More activities with the kids.  An exercise regiment is kind of hard with a three year-old and a one year-old.  So more floor time will definitely be a good thing.  And I am sure they will not complain at all.
Frugal living is the topic of the day.  Need to learn again how to live on little.  I have already started back at this anyway.  One of the reasons I don't have my cell phone working.
I need to find a place for the little kids and I to live that we can afford and all the things that means.  That will be checking into the resources available to me through the state. This comes about I will need to decide about working at my present job, finding a new full time job, going to school or just staying home for a couple of years with the kids.  Depends on the resources.
I want to get things done and settled in this house so Dave doesn't have to worry about things.  It will not be a bad start if that is what happens.  I want all the closets cleaned out.  I need to get the septic tank inspected so the county doesn't complain.  Hoping to get property taxes and insurance paid on both houses.

And then if Dave finds a good recovery and wants to mend what is broken we can always re-evaluate, but for now I am going with what I feel.  And that is that I need to take care of me and the little kids.  I have been entrusted by Mike and Cassie and the state of Washington to do that and I will.  I'm not scared anymore.  I can do this.