Access Admission

We have long gaps between our visits to the Children's Museum.  Mostly because it is spendy.  We go on first Fridays because they are free.  But most Fridays we are busy.  But since I recently discovered Arts for All, I have been watching for reduced admissions for us.  And the Children's Museum is one of the places that offer that.  They call it Access Admission.  We got in for $2 apiece. 
And off they went.  I followed the little man all around.  The little woman did her thing and every so often she would come find us or we would run into her.  And I realized something.  She is becoming self reliant.  Not because she wants to, but because I am so unavailable.  I have to follow the little man because he is younger.  And they do not play together.  So I trail after him to watch out for him and to keep him on an even keel.  But that leaves her on her own a lot.
She is not an extrovert so she plays by herself.  And I miss a lot.  I have missed both of her plays with the girl scouts.  I can't volunteer to help her with her girl scouting activities.  I am so needed elsewhere.  I spend so much of my time and energy with him that she really misses out.  And there is no way to change that.  And so she is becoming more self reliant all the time. 
And then that leads to the realization that she will not be me.  She will not have the relationship with me as a grown up that I had hoped.  I so hoped for one like I have with my mom (or did).  She was the last chance.  And so it will be.  And I will roll with it.  And in the meantime we will keep on keeping on with me following the little man around and her growing up on her own.