My friend Mona told me it is time to move on and start dating and Eddie said I need to get laid. I asked her where could I find these men I'm suppose to date and she didn't know either. I said I was waiting for George and she told me to stop. The thing is....I'm not looking to date. I'm not looking for a boyfriend. I'm NOT looking for a husband. What I want is George. And I don't want George as those. I just want George.
Then I have to ask myself why I want George. Is it this thing I have with addicts and alcoholics. If I instantly like someone they usually turn out to be one or the other. So I think back thirty some years ago and I don't recall having that reaction with George. I just loved him. And I still do on some level. Seriously when the neighbor said I glowed he wasn't kidding. I can feel myself glow when I think about him. So I have no answer. But I guess while I have no answer and while I'm not looking for a date I will keep waiting for George.
*SIGH*
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